OtPS: A Better Me

For serious this time, y'all!

For the past two weeks I've been trying to get healthier and more active. This is going to be a journey for me, obviously. I'm trying to change the way I think, the way I eat, and I'm trying to be more positive about this whole thing.

I have a problem with instant gratification. This has been my problem every time I have tried to lose weight in the past. I'll work out for a couple days, look in the mirror, see no difference, and say eff it. This time around, I am looking at myself as a sort of... project, if you will. Most of my favorite blogs & tv shows are all about the before, the transitioning process, and the after - home decorating, makeup tutorials, DIYs, and the like. I live for the before and after. So I figured, why not take that and apply it to myself? It seems to be working pretty well, I've lost an inch in my waist so far. Sweet, sweet motivation. I haven't completely cut off my bad habits. If I did that I know it wouldn't last and I'd be back to the same old shit. I still enjoy my sweets but I've been trying to replace cake and brownies with healthier alternatives more and more. I have also been doing pilates and am looking for other exercises to do to ramp up my efforts and results.

Not only am I applying this new way of thinking to weight loss, but I'm also bringing it to my closet. I have always loved fashion but I hate shopping for clothes because I'm not happy with my body. But that's no excuse. I can still dress the body I have while working toward the body I want. I know I'm not going to be a skinny, and that's okay. Doesn't mean I can't look awesome. Maybe I'll do some outfit shots from time to time? We'll see..